Changing

I look different
Is it because my hair is long
Or my eyebrows are waxed
My skin is darker now
Than it has been in a long time
Or is it because I’m older
But wait maybe I’m younger
Is it the time that shows?
My appearence is young
But my eyes show old age
Is it because of the brokenness
The past months have given me
Or maybe it’s the hope
The months ahead are showing me
Is.it the wisdom I have gained
From loving a man with so much of my heart and soul
Or.is it the lack of wisdom that sinks deep
Is it the bitterness and fear that I feel towards those who tend to hurt me
It is like the tangles in my hair
Or is it forgiveness I’m struggling to maintain
Thats glowing through my skin
The mirror will not reveal these things
Nor is it possible to look striaght at my heart
And hear it’s honesty
Only the future holds what is now
Who I am and who I will be
And what will become of me